The Lonely Side of a Spiritual Awakening
No one talks enough about how lonely it can feel to wake up.
When you start seeing life differently, when you begin healing, questioning, expanding - things shift. The conversations that once lit you up start to fall flat. The people who felt like home no longer feel aligned. It’s not that anyone did something wrong. You just start vibrating on a different frequency.
Your priorities change. You start craving depth instead of distraction, honesty instead of validation, connection instead of convenience. The world around you begins to look different, almost like you’re seeing behind the curtain for the first time. It’s beautiful and disorienting all at once.
There’s grief in awakening. You mourn the version of yourself that tolerated less, that stayed quiet to keep the peace, that accepted energy that no longer fits. You miss the simplicity of belonging, even if it wasn’t real belonging. You start to realise how many friendships were built on shared wounds, not shared growth.
It’s normal to feel lost here. To question everything. To spend nights wondering where your people are and why you feel so different. But that loneliness isn’t a punishment; it’s initiation. It’s clearing space for the right souls to find you.
Eventually, you do find them - the ones who talk energy and astrology like it’s their first language. The ones who don’t think you’re “too much” for feeling everything. The ones who see you, really see you.
This in-between is where your next chapter begins. You’re not being left behind. You’re being reborn.
It’s one of the hardest parts of awakening: realising that not everyone is meant to walk this next chapter with you. You’re rewriting your story, and some characters simply don’t make it to the next page.
At first, it stings. You keep trying to hold onto what once was, but the energy feels off. The conversations that used to fill you up now drain you. The laughter feels forced. You start noticing how much of yourself you had to shrink to fit in. You can’t unsee it. And once you stop pretending, there’s no going back.
You crave something different now. You crave depth. You crave truth. You crave people who want to talk energy, astrology, shadow work, manifestation - not small talk or surface-level drama. You want conversations that expand you, not ones that keep you stuck in old timelines.
But for a while, it’s just you. You and your journal. You and your intuition. You and the moon. Nights where you cry, then laugh, then feel oddly peaceful. Days where you question everything and wonder if anyone out there understands. That space in-between - the solitude after release and before rebirth - isn’t emptiness. It’s recalibration.
You’re not being punished for outgrowing people. You’re being prepared for new ones who match your frequency. People who meet you in the middle of your expansion, not pull you back into your old patterns.
So if you’re in that space right now, honour it. You’re building your future from the quiet.
That in-between space feels lonely. But it’s sacred. It’s the void where everything old dissolves, and the truth of who you are starts to rise. It’s where you strip away the noise, the expectations, and the versions of yourself that no longer fit. It’s uncomfortable, yes, but it’s also where you meet your real self—raw, unfiltered, infinite.
This phase isn’t meant to be rushed. It’s meant to be felt. To sit in the stillness and let your energy settle into something new. You might feel like nothing’s happening, but everything is. The universe is rearranging itself to meet your next chapter.
And when you’re ready, new people start appearing. The ones who get it. The ones who see your magic, not your mask. The ones who make you feel safe to be exactly who you are.
That’s why I built c0ven—for the ones who are done doing it alone. It’s a home for witches, healers, and seekers to gather, connect, and remember their power. A space for real connection, monthly moon circles, rituals, and deep, soulful conversations about everything you used to feel weird bringing up.
Because awakening doesn’t have to mean isolation. It can mean community. It can mean being witnessed in your transformation. It can mean laughing, crying, and growing with people who see the world like you do.
If you’ve been moving through your awakening feeling like no one understands you, I see you. You’re not behind. You’re just evolving.
What you get inside c0ven ✨
💻 Private Platform Access – custom built by me, with your own profile, forums, events, astro updates, and more.
🌕 Monthly Moon Circles – guided rituals and manifestation sessions synced with the lunar energy.
💫 Astrology & Energy Updates – fresh drops each month to help you move with the cosmos.
🔮 Live Workshops & Rituals – for healing, growth, and deep energetic alignment.
🌸 Community Connection – a safe space to meet other witches, healers, and cosmic babes who get it.
🪞 Replays & Resources – catch up anytime and revisit the magic whenever you need it.